What am I thinking today…..

I am thinking that all I want to do is make a hasty retreat to Walnut Grove and I don’t want to come home until January. I know life was hard during the pioneer days, however my longing for things to just be simple is palpable. I think that is what attracts me about baking bread. It’s a simple process, uncomplicated by the passing of time. Caroline Ingalls made her bread about the same way I make my bread today. I like that!

Filling out health insurance applications and having someone else tell me what they will and will not pay for when I am paying for the premiums sends my blood pressure over the edge. Then that in turn renders me ineligible for health insurance. Not that I have high blood pressure but the process of getting health insurance is enough to send it though the roof. Caroline Ingalls didn’t worry about taking Half Pint to see Doc Baker or how she was going to pay for it! She traded him a basket of eggs or a quart of jam or invited him to Sunday supper.

The fact that my husband makes a good living and still we struggle financially make me crazy. I can guarantee that Caroline Ingalls never had to pay a billion dollars for a gallon of milk, she just went out to the barn and set her bucket down. I want a cow y’all only then I would have to fill out a Architectural Modification Form with the Home Owners Association as well as submit a form over at City Hall requesting a variance for farm animals with in the city limits.

As the holidays approach it is inevitable that there are times when my desire is just do what I want to do. NOT what everyone else what's to do. Now I am pouting like a small child who has just been told that they can not have dessert until all my vegetable are eaten off my dinner plate.

I watch the news and wonder how it is that the entire world is NUTS!

I exhale at the endless reporting of a 72 day marriage, not to mention the millions of dollars wasted. Watching the reaction to the crowd when the guilty verdict was announced, jubilation! I watched and had to wonder what causes that kind of reaction, yet knowing that when priorities are misplaced and you begin to worship things of the world then I am not surprised.

I spend so much time shaking my head over the things of this world. How to live in the world and not be of the world. How to stay focused on Jesus and not let the minutia of the ridiculousness that surround me send me over the edge.

There are times when weeping seems the only response to the frustration I feel at what has become of the world.

I am tired of having to pay for mistakes that I had nothing to do with.

I am tired of…..just fill in the blank with whatever is going on in our community, county, state, country or the world!

Over the last few weeks I have pondered about the Old Testament prophets. God spoke to them and sent them out to proclaim truth and righteousness.

Jeremiah 7:24

But they did not listen or pay attention; instead, they followed the stubborn inclinations of their evil hearts. They went backward and not forward.

There are still people out there who refuse to see the relevance of God’s word for us in today’s world!

How much truth and righteousness is there in our backward world today.

MY list of programmed shows that was stored in my DVR is getting smaller and smaller. More times than not I am just turning it off because there are so may evil influences on the air waves it seems there is no suitable alternative.

Politics……just breathing through that one. If there was EVER a situation that needed the hand of God to sweep things clean then now is the time!

Is there a moral compass in secular society?

Will I do what I want to do for Thanksgiving or will we yield to the demands of family?

Will the world come to and end in 2012?

Will gas prices hit $5.00 a gallon forcing us all to switch to a horse and buggy?

Will my HOA allow us to park a Horse and Buggy in the driveway?

Will my application for Health Insurance be approved and what will it cost?

Are Will and Kate expecting and what does this speculation really have to do with anything?

Just breathing out y’all………

If you need me I will be in Walnut Grove baking bread with Caroline……

 

R

Comments

Love it! Especially the horse and buggy thought--and about your HOA allowing them.

Blessings!
Skoots1moM said…
i think there are more people wanting the same things you do...
these days of struggle...everywhere we turn...i posted on struggle today also...and i had not read your post before posting mine.
hhhmmmmmm.
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Skoots1moM said…
i think there are more people wanting the same things you do...
these days of struggle...everywhere we turn...i posted on struggle today also...and i had not read your post before posting mine.
hhhmmmmmm.
Skoots1moM said…
hahahah, don't ask me why it posted me 4 x's...
Skoots1moM said…
hahahah, don't ask me why it posted me 4 x's...
Skoots1moM said…
hahahah, don't ask me why it posted me 4 x's...
Kathleen said…
I call this "pondering". Some days the ponderings are mountainous, so I totally understand yours :)

The world is whacko. The trick for me is not joining them :)
Kim said…
Giggling but totally understanding your frustration! There are times I'd just like to flee to a deserted island and not be bothered by the mess we live in.

We would like to build our house in such a way as to be "off the grid" as much as possible. Not only for the cost-saving benefit, but also so we're not at the mercy of others. I see hard times ahead, including mandatory blackouts and whatever you'd call shutting off the water for designated periods of time. (I'm talking where we live, not the U.S. -- although that may prove true here too)

And I like the idea of growing as much of our food as possible. Again not only for the cost-saving benefit, but then I'd KNOW what I'm eating and wouldn't be so worried about pesticides or bacteria.

Goodness, that deserted island is just sounding better and better. *sigh*

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