Be Still and Know...Then and Now

Sooooooo it's been a different kind of week for me. As a mom, I have those moments when I am stuck in worry and concern. The rational side of my brain tells me to let go and let God handle things. That would be the smart thing to do. Me and smart have a love hate relationship! It was another maternal milestone, watching my daughter drive down the street heading for her first vacation...without ME! She and three of her friends headed to the beach. She worked hard all year long, ended the semester with a 4.0 and working diligently saving her paycheck. Yet, for as hard as she worked, the momma in me wanted to throw myself on the hood of the car and scream "DON'T LEAVE ME! " I was good, I was a grown up, I did snap a picture of her car, licence plate and student parking pass (while she wasn't looking ) because, yes I need to recognize that my little girl really isn't my little girl anymore, but flashes of the nightly news are very real. ...

No really, that's what I am doing right now. So rather than sit and twiddle my thumbs...Blogging from the studio! Over the course of the last several month life has been streaching my prayer life. In a nutshell, parenting semi-adult children is hard. I may end up in the nut house before the process of releasing the girlchild out unto the world is all said and done. I am seeking the rule book for how to maintain my sanity and control my toung whilst appearing perfectly calm to the rest of the world. Anybody got a copy...cause I really need it. Wait...rule book, God's  Word, that's it I'll club her into submission with my NIV Study Bible. It's big, thick and certainly heavy enough! Well maybe not, but a girl can dream... My internal dialog is screaming "Do it my way!" Yet my semi-parental-wisdom is shouting to just keep my trap shut. All this hinges on me being obedient to keep said trap shut...yea, not so much! Not to mention  you know who stirring th...

there are some things I know for sure! the evil one works harder to deter those of faith because the victory will be sweeter if he can succeed. I knew that tapping away on my phone would hinder my process this morning so I had to dust off the laptop to get these thoughts out of my head this morning. Me in my jammies this morning....good morning y'all! I know the truth, I also know who the ruler of the air is. Last night I spent several hours having great discussion with the Lord. The evil one would place unwanted thoughts in my head. I would take them captive, place them in God's hands and allow Him to usher them back out.  Would that I could do this but once and have it be done and over with.  Sadly being the weak willed human I am unwanted thoughts creep in and I have to deal with them. The reality is that the evil one know right where to strike. He knows where my underbelly is.  My other more important truth is that God is...

I love having my bible on my phone, however, there are times when I need the physical turn of the page. When I need the weight of God’s Word upon my lap. There are times when I need to see my scribbles in the margins to be re-reminded of God's  promises in my life. I did not sleep well last night. Parenting is so hard, when they are infants, you think wow this is hard. You have to trust your gut because they can't tell you what is wrong. Toddlers, have mercy! I remember those days! Teenagers, can I get an AMEN! I am kicking at the goads here. Technically the Girlchild is an adult, but my momma instincts are still in full force. In my head I think "If she would just do things my way.." The reality is I have to trust the foundation we laid.  You know who is at work placing images, thoughts and all manor of horrible things in my path. She was off with friends last night, plus the potential of a new boyfriend, well I spent the night wrestling with my thoughts, pra...

I explained to my husband yesterday when he came home from work that unbeknownst to him we had officially transitioned into a completely different phase of our parental experience. It was that thing that all parents know will happen eventually but try to avoid thinking about. I stood in the driveway and watched my child hop in the car and head off to the movies with her bestie behind the wheel of the car. "Bring seventeen . . . the  Inevitable Frontier. These are the teenage experiences of the parental mother-ship Be Still and Know . Her mission : to remain calm as her daughter pulls out of the driveway for the first time with another teenage driver heading off to the movies, explore strange new feelings of panic ; to seek out comfort and advice for those that have traveled this road before her; to boldly state “Be sure to text me when you get there!” – Robin, Be Still and Know Of course you must hum the theme for Star Trek to get the full impact of this profound statement...

Yesterday I sent the hubs off on his yearly mission trip to Mexico . This would have been the DD second trip into the mission field but the recovery process has left her on the side lines for this trip. Instead of having the week to myself and reveling in my freedom and indulging my every whim (sorta) I am now spending the week tending to the needs of my 14 year old DD. On a personal note I will say that over the course of our time in the hospital and also here at home I have found myself in the position of having to help my DD with things that I have not helped her with since she was a very little girl. It has been a unique bonding situation for both of us. Feeding her apple sauce as she laid in bed at the hospital, helping her wash her hair for the first time once we got home, helping her get dressed, tying her shoes, walking beside her so she would not fall and helping her up a small flight of steps. Let me also say that the flash backs to the very early days of motherhood...