Be Still and Know...Then and Now

Sooooooo it's been a different kind of week for me. As a mom, I have those moments when I am stuck in worry and concern. The rational side of my brain tells me to let go and let God handle things. That would be the smart thing to do. Me and smart have a love hate relationship! It was another maternal milestone, watching my daughter drive down the street heading for her first vacation...without ME! She and three of her friends headed to the beach. She worked hard all year long, ended the semester with a 4.0 and working diligently saving her paycheck. Yet, for as hard as she worked, the momma in me wanted to throw myself on the hood of the car and scream "DON'T LEAVE ME! " I was good, I was a grown up, I did snap a picture of her car, licence plate and student parking pass (while she wasn't looking ) because, yes I need to recognize that my little girl really isn't my little girl anymore, but flashes of the nightly news are very real. ...

What a difficult question to ask and an even more difficult process to go through. As parents we get a front row seat in this painful mini-drama. Sometimes there is a lot of blood shed, weather physically or emotionally. There is usually pain involved, lots of change, and a very real revelation that as much as we want good things for our children there comes a time when we have to step back and pray that the process will not be to painful for them to experience and for us to watch. I keep looking at my son, who chronologically is almost 19 years old, but emotionally and maturity wise he is closer to being about 16. The synapses in his brain have not yet made the connection that allow for rational or logical thinking. He still is operating under the assumption that as long as I don’t get caught then everything will be just fine. He motto is “Why tell the truth when a lie will work just fine!” The other enduring quality is his penchant for physical labor. The path of least resistance is ...