I’m taking a breath…
Shaking my head and breathing some more and laughing at myself to keep from bursting into tears.
You ever have one of those days when you foolishly think you are on the right track.
This past fall I began a new weekly bible study, it is a rather in-depth comparative study of the Gospels. Now I have to also confess that I am having some difficulties with this study as I am simply not that analytical.
I know that there are individuals out there who truly do care why the precise verbiage is different in Marks account as apposed to the account in Matthew. I however have found it a bit mind numbing at times. I also know that God’s word never returns empty so I persist knowing that I will receive what God intends for me to receive during this study. I am trying to remain diligent and open to this new way of delving into the God’s word. Trying being the operative word here!
Confession time…over the holidays I had allowed myself to be less than diligent, a total understatement as I did not crack my study manual once during the holiday beak, my bad… why yes I am thank you very much!
Well feeling less than prepared last week I decided to get back on track and actually made the effort to get my study done this week as to be fully prepared for Wednesday morning. I checked off each scripture as I read it, I highlighted all the interesting or noteworthy lines of text in the manual and was fully satisfied that upon entering the room this morning that I would be able to hold my head high as well as being able to fully participate.
As I listened to the opening video it began to slowly wash over me.
That’s funny I thought they have in the wrong video.
I did not read anything this week about Jesus turning over the tables of the money changers in the temple….
The reality crashed in upon me, yes, you guessed it.
What’s the expression…a day late and a dollar short, or maybe it should be a week early and I’ve no clue what is going on.
And I thought I was so diligent when in fact I was one week off.
I used to be a competent person, I remember the days when I could walk from one room to another and actually remember what it was I came into the room for. Now however it has become very clear to me that the very simple concepts such as short term memory as well as the ability to make sure I am on the right page have now become a thing of the past.
I humbly ask you to pray for me people, or quite possibly your prayer time would be better spent praying for the people who are under my care such as my DD and DH.
On the bright side I am now one week ahead in my study time, but given the fact that in one week’s time I quite possibly will have no memory of what I read this week I may just need to begin again.
Robin (Praise Jesus I remembered my name!)