The sun has just come up, the birds are enjoying themselves with a racket of chirping and calling back and forth, the dog is curled up next to me and the grandbaby is still fast asleep….for now anyway.
I have begun to wonder if there may be some biological connection between waning hormones and brain function. Last night I was trying to describe how I felt to the ladies in my accountability group. They were listening and had the automatic head bobbing in the affirmative as they either remembered similar feelings or were experiencing them as well. I felt mildly comforted knowing that this “OFF” feeling is not unique, however it did little in actually making me feel better.
Attempting to describe the feelings………it’s like being surrounded by a thick fog that is charged with a negative emotions. The internal dialogue within my head is extremely loud. The things I’m thinking y’all……it is a constant ongoing opportunity for repentance and then asking for forgiveness. Throw in the mix a almost 17 year old who can’t seem to focus on anything that is not a small electronic device, grooming device, accessories or basically revolving around her add to the internal dialog in a big way.
I have much to do today, however all I really want to do is just cocoon myself away from everyone and wait…..
Well a little blond curly headed ray of sunshine just woke up and is now cuddle up next to me on the sofa asking to play triangles…..gotta go y’all